The days here in Livermore are getting hot enough to keep the door open at night and that must mean one thing: Summer is finally coming! After just celebrating my 32nd birthday, I have come to the realization that in short time my daughter will be born. Sometime in the next month I will be rushing to the hospital to welcome who will surely be the twinkle in my eye.
I cannot believe it is so close! I am not ready...well I am ready, I am looking forward to it, but somehow those months that we had to get everything done in have flown by. I have the thought that even if we felt like everything was done and accomplished, there would still be things forgotten about. With that being said, there is not a moment that goes by that I do not think about how I want to provide for her, not only emotionally, financially, but I want to provide her new opportunities, and responsibilities.
I want to teach her so much! I want her to be able to make choices in her life, but not just choices because she feels like it, but because she has an intelligent and mindful discussion on why she would do one thing over another. I look forward to holding her when she's little, consoling her when she's older and get's her heart broken, but what I look forward to most is being able to hopefully be able to discuss so much with her.
The funny thing is, the older you get the less you worry so much about what other people really think of you as long as what you are doing is good for you and your family. You know that from experience you have little to lose by trying or by asking someone some questions, but everything to gain by asking the right questions. Sometimes the 30 seconds worth of embarrassment are worth much more than you even could imagine. As I have gotten older I have begun thinking more and more about what it is I will one day leave behind, and I hope my daughter will be the center of it all. She immediately will represent my legacy, which is why I owe so much of my time and thoughts to her.
This is just a beginning...there is so much more to come
